Fortunate Life

I’ve noticed something about myself: whenever I’m hurt or going through something heavy, my first instinct is to think my way through it. I replay moments in my head, ask endless questions, and try to come up with answers. It’s almost like my mind is a safe house. Maybe it started way back when I was younger, when I didn’t know how to handle certain experiences. Back then, I had no tools, no support, so I did the only thing I could—I escaped into my head. Instead of letting myself feel the pain, I shut it down and started overthinking: “Why did this happen? What’s wrong with me? How do I fix it?” But here’s what I’m slowly learning: Healing doesn’t come from logic. It doesn’t happen because I figured out the “why.” It happens when I allow myself to feel again . Safely. Gently. Without judgment. That’s why no matter how many books I’ve read, or how much advice I’ve consumed, some patterns kept repeating in my life. Because knowledge alone isn’t the same as healing. The real shift beg...

It’s so easy to forget that behind every smile and laugh, there are stories we don’t see. If you see my reels and other social media posts, you’ll always see me smiling, laughing, and being playful — like I’m carefree. But what you don’t see is that I went through a real roller coaster of emotions from 2023 until early 2024. The Silent Questions I reached a point where I asked myself: “What am I really living for?” I even thought, “If I disappear, will anyone even remember me?” Sounds dramatic, right? But those thoughts were real. Don’t worry — I never thought of harming myself — but I did feel worthless, like my life didn’t matter, like there wouldn’t be anything worth saying in a eulogy about me. Yes, I had achievements — I’m a trainer, I finished my MBA, I get to travel for work — but sometimes, even that doesn’t stop the heart from feeling heavy. Why Was I Feeling This Way? After reflecting (and with the help of my best friend Google), I found some possible reasons: Hormonal imba...

The past two years have been tough for me. I’ve been feeling more emotional, more anxious, and sometimes even a little depressed.  Maybe it’s menopause, or maybe it’s just life piling up—but my mind has been in chaos. Small problems feel big. I overthink everything—what people say, what they don’t say, their actions, even their silence. It gives me sleepless nights, stress, and a heavy feeling in my chest. Then I came across some ideas from stoicism —a way of thinking that teaches you to focus on what you can control and let go of what you can’t. It made a lot of sense to me. So I started paying more attention to these things, and it helped me slowly feel more calm and in control of myself. Here are: 7 Things You Can’t Control in Life Other people’s actions and opinions You can’t control how people act or what they think. Their choices are not your responsibility. The past What’s done is done. You can’t change it. You can only decide how to live today. The weather or...

  My Healing Journey in Sagada  Last January 3-5, I embarked on a Sagada tour that had been on my bucket list for quite some time. Originally, I planned to go last year, but life got in the way. My friends were unavailable, and when I finally decided to join a group, my schedule became too hectic. This year, I resolved to make it happen and booked a trip through a travel agent organizing tours in Sagada. It turned out to be more than just a vacation—it became a journey of healing. A Time for Reflection As my 50th birthday approaches, I’ve been overwhelmed with emotions. Menopause, hormonal imbalance, and the weight of expectations from others have taken a toll on me. I’ve invited close friends to celebrate my milestone birthday, only to face a string of declines due to prior commitments. While I understand their reasons, it hurt deeply. It felt as though no one cared enough to adjust their plans for me. Coupled with other lingering personal challenges, this left me feeling sad...